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Monday

Its obvious….I am missing sex. Everybody now and then has an erotic dream, but I have them quite often lately and the one I had today, that was really something! I had no idea what sexual fantasies I am capable of. Cold shower did help a bit, but for how long? And because I have no intention to spend the rest of my life in the shower, I have decided to buy myself a battery operated device…aka dildo. I guess it's a shame I still don't have one at my age. Since I am kind of shy I have decided to drag a friend of mine with me.


Tuseday

I looked really hot today, but of course I didn't meet the golf guy (that remembers me or with a shit on my shoe or my mascara running down my face). I meet him probably when truck will hit me or something else hilarious will be happening to my face. And why do I even care? I bet he's just a player who uses golf just to higher up his ego. And who knows what else he is busting up. But I wont need you guys anymore cause tomorrow I am going to buy myself a dildo ! HA!


Wednesday

Got him and he is really sexy! After quite long deciding – I never had so many dicks in my hand – finally won the silikon perfect sized and coloured one. When I had that perfection vibrating in my hand, saleswoman palm his glans and proclaim that he is really a "minion". Truth is, while I was paying for that perfect minion I was like WHOA but just to be sure I pack whole box of rechargable batteries.



Thursday

My friend was texting me since morning how was it last night and how many orgasms did I get? None, because I am sissy! I was all set up and then I thought how stupid this is and gave up. But I have a plan: Saturday I buy two bottles of bubbles and when I will be in the mood I jump on it, I swear!


Friday

I have awesome mood! Of course I met my ex in the morning with some bugger wretch poor looking girl and his eyes almost pooped out. No wonder I was wearing my perfect fit coat and skirt with high heels…..10cm minimum (which use to drive him crazy in good old days). When he babbled out 'HI' ….I just noded him back and with the amile on my face and feeling of absolute victory I left him to that little grey mouse he was walking with. He can wrest his hair now, nitwit !


Saturday evening

Taking long bath and drinking champagne. After the bath I moved my heated up body naked to the bedroom. Still sipping on a champagne with my eyes closed I was touching my lap and face with "minion". When I felt pleasant and intensive tingling, impatiently I slide him between my legs…


Sunday

I am the biggest nana that can exist! I mean seriously, after 10 years of my sexual life, when I had guys more then enough I had never experience such a ride like I did with my perfect minion. First time I enjoyed four orgasms and for the first time I didn't have to answer the stupid and vain question: Did you come? How was I ?

Person who think out dildo….. I would gave him Nobel Price!

Love is the answer, but while you're waiting for the answer, sex raises some pretty good questions."

~Woody Allen~

I was planning for so long to go and see Sex and the city but instead of going to cinema and see it which would be much smarter to do……I was living my own Sex and the City!


And it was great ya know.....it included Mr.Big for sure, my new cute sexi outfit, high heel shoes, a lot of sex, wine from paper cup (ok ehm ehm) , gay parade (BIG TIME) and a lot a lot of drama!

OK maybe it was not all that fabolouse....cause I choose the worst possible background for it.

Month after successful break-up.....first two weeks of strong and confident myself that on my own I do much much better....came the typical break down phase of wasted night....so drunk that any sailor would be proud of me (and did things no one would be proud of), flirting with few guys (which made me feel much better at first and really bad after), changing my hair colour (which led to make me look like a chipmunk <- this is actually a fun part) and driving all my friends nearly to craziness (but they are all so supportive and I love them for that) I have found myself sitting yet again at his apartment. (which led to lifted eyebrows of some and kick in my azz from others) Like if I didnt talk about it in "Ill never give you up itch" blog post before,right?

To my defense I have to say I went there purely to pick up my stuff, which of course does not explain why I stayed for next four days. And sounds pretty much just as an excuse to get laid. And turn out it was. His or mine that does not matter. I have been honestly nagging myself deep down inside the whole time that I am so gonna be sorry for doing this to myself....and of course I was. But I could not force myself to leave. You know when guys do those puppy eyes and kiss you and your knees go weak and you think....ok maybe it wont be that bad? But then he switch and you know you got tricked once again?!
Am I self destructive person who search for the source of pain, that gonna be served to me drop by drop till I fall apart completely?

We always give such a good advises to our friends but when it come down to us....we do exactly what we should not! And what is worst? We know it is wrong and we still do it!

After four days I got finally yank out of my own illusions!! Well of course I didn't find out what I want....but I finally know what I don' t want!
And I really suck at arguing and making my point clear and loud....I have to work on that one more. haha

My point is....sometimes we just have to live through tought times by ourselves and our friends and find out our own answers and explanations instead of putting ourselves to vurnelable position we know we gonna be regretting later.

And sometimes it is better not to know anything!!!!

Turns out your ex will always stay in the EX BOX.....he cannot become fu*k buddy as he would like......cause emotions are involved......nor friend cause if you call him he thinks you want to get back at him.....nor party buddy cause he get jelouse when you flirt with others. Your ex will always be just ex......you can work out some sort of communication between, but you cannot label it.

There'll always be jelousy, or emotions, or chemistry, or bitter taste of hate to some extend.

But things are never black and white....sometimes they are grey.....and other times they shine like rainbow.

Next time I want Sex and the City......I am putting in the DVD, that's for sure!;)

He told me he knows,I might think he's crazy...caring on this way....calling me up in the middle of the night...but he's got something that just can't wait to stay.

He said:
I wish you were with me tonight....right here in my arms. It’s hard to put my mind to rest....not knowing where you are. The city lights have a thousand eyes....that follow in the stares...It’ s midnight now and I hope tonight I am dead.

Why did I say those words I said?
When I knew that they were wrong
That living look into your face
You were as good as gone.
I paid the price with only this....I need you to return
I don’t wanna lose you somewhere in the night
I don’ t wanna use you we should make it right
becouse that’s the way that it’s supposed to be.

I wonder what you are thinking of
I hope I am on your mind
You know I am crazy for you, babe
And I am the jealous kind.

So take away my doubts and fears....and tell me where you are

I can see now where you might grow tired ...Of dreams that don't come true
I can see where I have fallen short....Of the things I promised you
I can see now.....No love on your face
I must get used to seein' a stranger in my place.

You might think I'm desperate
But maybe I just might be
How can I convince you to see
Come on, baby, won't you take a chance with me?

As I walk down this busy street....I think about your leaving
How my life may never be the same...I know I should be planning ways
to enjoy this endless freedom.

Every night I turn the tv on
To break the sound of silence
For a while it takes you off my mind
Just when I feel over you reality surrounds me.

Darling, some prisons don't have walls
Your memory won't let me go at all
I found no way out since you've been gone
Some prisons don't have walls.